Hiya hi!! There’s maybe a lot I want to ramble about. I was going to try and keep it brief but I kinda failed at that lol. Sorry if it's really disjointed! It's also kinda upsetting!! Oh well! ´･ᴗ･`

I'm putting my art summary here before I start rambling a ton. Like, for your sake. :)

Also here's like four of my favourite things I've done this year? Not really in any order.

Idk, I'm really happy with these ones so yay.

There is a very real chance I end up deleting this post.

2024 was kind of a weird year, to put it lightly. Maybe it's a mildly bitter sentiment I have.

One of the really cool things that happened was I got to meet some friends in person again in Philly! That was cool! I kinda already rambled about it a bit before, even if it was kind of surface-level. I am glad I got to see everyone again; it was super fun. Oh!! Also, the Garfield movie for PSP is sitting nicely behind Kyubey (not that it really matters).

I only really have two resolutions I am willing to share with others, which is. Funny, considering one of them. ( •_•)

I need to get better at speaking with others. In a meaningful manner, at least. I struggle to actually talk, I feel like the things I say don't make sense often? Or I vomit words. Neither of these are ideal, lol.

I also need to become ok with sharing more of my art and writing with others. It’s difficult to want to share anything I make at times, and sometimes I hold certain things really close? So in the end nothing is seen except by me. It’s fine to have personal and private art and writing, it’s important to. However, I would like to share the stories I write up, they aren’t always supposed to be for myself alone. Ignoring that sentiment, it's impossible to improve if I don’t share more often.

Thinking a bit about improvement, my art has gotten better this year. I kinda look back at my art from 2020 or even last year and the differences are fairly large even in a short amount of time? It’s weird. At least, I think it’s improved a lot. I want to keep pushing and start making more complicated backgrounds and pieces with larger groups of people.

It’s silly, I think the Lancer game I’m in with my friends may be motivating me toward that. We’ll see, lol.

Not going to dwell on this super long, because it sucks. There wasn't a really good way for me to write about that didn't make me wildly uncomfortable (or read a certain way, frankly. It still does.) But also It's kind of hard to be like "haha wowie yay this year was great!!" Parts of the year were good but also like. lmao.

The second half of the year has been kinda difficult for me - in a way that's made it hard for me to want to stick around and do things with others. Or at all for that matter. I'm getting out of that mind now, I think. My epilepsy has been getting worse and that certainly has not helped. Like, lmao. And I've been spending more and more time at the doctors, and it's for something I need but it's insufferable. And I hate it. But I very much enjoy being able to function.

I also lost half my vision, this has decidedly been a nightmare but what I can do about it at this point? I've been getting used to it. Not much else to do other than that, as if I have a choice in the matter. On a sillier note, I've been pirate-maxxing the past few months because of it.

Visual aid below, for those who need it. ´･ᴗ･`

Things will be fine in the end though!! I am certain of this!! Luckily, I have really cool friends who tolerate (most) of my evil schemes, yeah? (◕‿◕) I am insanely thankful for everyone around me, you guys have no clue. Probably because I don't tell you!! haha. I will do my best to do better for you guys.

In spite of everything, I am looking forward to 2025!! Things may be difficult but next year will be good. Even if I have to blow up the sun or something like that. It will be good! °˖✧◝(⁰▿⁰)◜✧˖°

I hope the new year is kind to everyone. ´･ᴗ･`

Thank you guys!!!